I'm Miles. 26. FTM. Living in Washington state. I love a lot of things. I'm an open book, so ask away! :) Also, I'm on that facebook thing, which I probably maintain better. www.facebook.com/miles.ramsey
I love music, movies, books, some television. I love piercings and tattoos. I have 11 tattoos, I think? And plans for many more. I like learning and miss school. I love to dance. I love holding hands.
Hmmm… I feel loved by many, but seen by few as of late. Trying to figure out how to come out of my cocoon and be seen by all, so they can decide if they really love me, or just the me they see.
Back to that place where I have so much on my mind and so much to say with no way to verbalize it. That place where I spread my hands out wide and look at them expecting to the answer to whatever I am looking for to be there, but it’s not. Knowing I am better than this, or at least can be, is kind of haunting.
I can feel something building inside and I only hope I can rise to the occasion, rather than falter and fall.
So many roles I play. Sometimes they consume me more than they should. Sometimes I wait for the normalcy to come, but what is ‘normal’, really? The feeling like I should have made more of myself by now is eating me. And when I think “How can one make more of oneself than to make oneself a man?” it feels like I am cheating myself from a challenge to be better. Be better. Changing gender isn’t the end. Rise up. Live your dreams, live your life. Change the world. Inspire. Create. You have it in you…. just get in touch with it.
*sigh* I wish this scratched the surface of what I was trying to let out.
“Dear James: My partner and I are in a polyamorous relationship and have been having some conflicting issues around safer sex recently. I tend to be the more cautious one of us, and he says that my attitudes towards safer sex make him feel like his body is dirty. He is often dealing with dysphoria, and I feel sad to be exacerbating that.
What happens when physical safety (in terms of STI’s) and emotional safety come into conflict with each other? What strategies do you have around practicing safer sex in a way that is still loving and affirming of our bodies?”
My last weekend at Blow Pony on tour in Oly. We got cray-cray! Us queers made the dance floor mandatory shirtless! I saw a lot of boobies :) First pic is my “black tie” attire after said dance floor was shirtless. The second pic is me with Leslie Hall and her bear! So much fun!