…do all my girlfriends leave and/or cheat on me with their less attractive ex? I get that they have a history, but if I am so ‘hot’ and ‘desirable’ why would they walk away?

Change the WorLd - Eric Clapton with Lyrics (by alegnamay)

*SIGH*

robbinftm asked: You sure must bring a lot of trans people hope because you look so fabolous! I'm happy that you share your awesome looks, thank you!

Thank you, for your kind words. I almost feel like I am giving false hopes. I have mostly genetics to thank. Without my blood lines, who knows what I would look like by now. But, I am finally beginning to see what others see in me. It’s strange, spending so much of your life being ‘ugly’ as a woman, because that is not who you are meant to be. But suddenly, once comfortable in your own skin, you have all these people telling you how attractive you are. I’ve most certainly let go of my old life and lifestyle, however, some poor lessons learned then still stick. I am humbled by the folks who find me attractive, I still even blush and look away when it is mentioned. Years of high school and negativity are going away, but at the same time, I am still SO used to not even being noticed. I am getting there, and I appreciate that people find me attractive and a source for hope. NEVER give up hope. NEVER.

(via bethosethatfly)

(via provocatoria)

Here’s an updated pretty boy shot, just for you all ;)

What are your thoughts and opinions on FTM’s having their scars from top surgery covered? I mean like tattoos…

Do you feel it is them hiding from their Trans-ness?

I came up with a really cool idea, but it’s not so much that I want to hide, as it is this tattoo idea would most likely cover my scars…

opinions?

*Edit: this would not be a ‘stealth’ move. I am so queer and so pro-trans, I never deny it. I am an open book for sure. I just feel like covering my scars takes a piece of me away, and I worry if my community will see it as the same…

I wish she were in my arms as I try to sleep. I miss her a lot. And I just want to hold her.

Or, I want this longing for her to go away.

I just want relief from this…

Part of me sat here and wondered what we would have done together on a day like this… What adventures we would have went on, what places we would have discovered, what new and amazing memories we would have had….

Part of me is glad I did today on my own… Doing amazing things, creating my own memories that won’t be hard to stomach later on.

I am going to be okay…